Monday, April 27, 2009

Lost in the Dad Woods


Saturday I spent the entire day outside with my family. We were cleaning up the debris from a storm 6 months ago. As we burned a mass of upended roots that stood almost 8 feet high (thanks for the great idea Adem), our sons and several neighborhood children roasted hot dogs and marshmallows and poked sticks into the flames. I started to move large rounds of spruce that had been left in a jumbled pile by the tree cutting service we hired. I placed the largest in circumference in the pea gravel bed that used to hold our substantial playhouse/ swing/slide/climbing wall thingy which had blown down in an earlier storm, in an attempt to make an obstacle course of sorts for Atticus, Rohan, and Kai. I wanted them to be able to step or leap from one to the other, maybe timing or racing each other. That was when I had the first in that days series of "dad woulds". Sometimes I don't know what dad would have done... I just know he would have had a really good idea. Sometimes I know pretty much what he would have done but I can't make myself expend the energy to do it. but dad would have and that was one of the special things about dad. he would do the most fun or clever things. unforgettable things.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

well this has gone on long enough


I just have to write something!! the post I meant to write over a month ago was about how this blog site is Dad's grave to me. The thought occurred to me because I had been toying with my Facebook account and thought how convenient it would be if "Blogger" had all those amenities ( or if we somehow moved Dad's blog over to Facebook). Like alerting your email if someone had posted or if someone had commented on a post you had made ages ago. However I immediately thought that Facebook was far too public and frivolous to hold our thoughts and visits. I can not go to Dad's grave, so when I want to visit him, hold him quietly in my heart, I come here and read or just grieve. It is ok there are no new entries because I know that I am still coming here week after week even if there is not. Today, though, I will leave some flowers and some words as proof I was here. My words are APPLES AND CHEESE!!!