sigh two / too

A song came on the radio yesterday. The one that Aidan put on the DVD he made for his grandpa. It made me cry all over again. I just wish there had been more time to spend with him and that my children could have gotten to know him better. Aidan was in the car with me and I thanked him again for making that movie and I asked him how he felt about Grandpa and he said he was a bit sad and that he wished he had lived closer to us. I didn't say it, but I almost reminded him that now Grandpa lives right in our heart and so when we miss him we have to look inside for the best of him that we bear and share on our journey through our own lives.

:::sigh:::

Big check today from the settlement.
It's extremely bittersweet....

It'll pay for my Master's which is a huge weight off my chest- but I would give ANYTHING to just have had him here a little bit longer. Screw the $$, it'll never make up for the time we've lost. :(


Thank you, Dad. ::hugs::